Exam stress or mood swing?

Yes this is the Promos period. For all those out there who are in this period as well, good luck.

My mood has been pretty bad these few days, negative feelings about promos, bad mood, insecurities, all gushing out. What even. 4 days of break straight before Econs and Lit on wed, which means we got to make full use of our time to prepare for these 2 crazy H2 subjects plus history. But hey, Saturday was unproductive. I just finished up on Econs lecture book, went through some past papers and stuff and that's it. That was all I did. I must be crazy.

Today is slightly better. I did lots and lots of lit and finally highlighted my exam text. Yeah finally. Then followed by Econs... Econs essays are giving me a headache...

Haven't done my 2012 math promo paper yet because I feel that I have to finish Econs and lit first before I can concentrate on math, which leads to why I don't want to go for tomorrow's not compulsory math lesson. And I feel that I will feel even worse if I go for the math lesson.

Then there comes my insecurities. Don't ask me why I feel insecure. I really don't know. I keep feeling that all my friends actually don't like me as much as I think so. They may actually find me annoying, irritating and I don't know what even though they don't express it. What if one day, they will all eventually leave me? What if no one is willing to listen to me? What if one day, I will be all alone? I am actually pretty sensitive to what people do, just that I don't show it. Sometimes, a trivial matter can actually cause me to go really far-fetched. But, I will never show this side of me to people because they will probably find me weird and annoying.

Exam stress or mood swing? I don't know. I got to stop thinking about such weird stuff and just spend all my time studying. And please, I hope the promos period will be over quickly so that I will stop feeling stress. Of course, I gotta promote.